NDE AKO MAKATULOG
For the past 3 weeks ang gulo ng tulog ko at least twice a week. Parang light sleep lang na madaming iniisip. Ang gulo ng utak ko nde ko matahimik. Right now i was trying to sleep pero bumangon ako kasi nde nanaman ako makatulog.
Iniisip ko things in life lang.. i have this feeling of anxiety na nde ko maintindihan. I keep moving around my bed tapos minsan pinapawisan or giniginaw. Ano kaya ito.. parang midlife crisis or menapuse.. hehe.
I was thinking about my future. like what wil happen if i quit my job. grabe i will lose so many things. my house, my car, my independence. Pero yung mga mahihirap na tao.. wala sila pera so they dont have much to lose to begin with. Yung mga contento sa buhay na conti ang material things pero happy sila sa life nila and with thier loved ones..kakaingit.
If u think about it.. yung mga mayayaman na tao ang madaming problema sa buhay. Sila ang nadedepress and take drugs for an escape. Meron ka na ba narinig na farmer or fisherman na nagpakamatay cause of depression?
Tingnan mo si michael jackson for example... super yaman nun pero tingnan mo ginawa nya sa mukha nya.. u think he is happy and content with life when he looks in the mirror even though he has everything he could possibly want.. what is missing? love? family? friends? Anyways im sure u get the point.
Iniisip ko din mga women in my life.. past and present..pero nde ko puede bangitin dito kasi masyado personal... pero things are going good.. i think.. kung walang magbabago.. slow and steady..
Iniisip ko din how i miss friends na nde ko na gaano nakikita or nakakausap cause of distance.. i hope and pray that you all are doing well!! These people have really good and genuine charactr: LIz, asim, mian, carl, liz na isa pa, corina, cathy!
Iniisip ko din mga pinsan ko na napakababait at ganda... how i regret na i didnt get to hang out with them as much as i would like to, nde ko sila nabigyan ng advice like a kuya should. Na miss ko mga debut, wedding, company, and important things that happend in thier life..
Iniisip ko din mga coworkers ko na ang tatamad.. ang papanget ng mga work ethics.. Iniisip ko how in corporate america.. you move up with who you know and not what u know...
I have htis general feeling of asar and worry..shiet ang pagnet.. punta na lang ako sa doc next week.. papatingin ko ulo ko.. hehe..
Iniisip ko things in life lang.. i have this feeling of anxiety na nde ko maintindihan. I keep moving around my bed tapos minsan pinapawisan or giniginaw. Ano kaya ito.. parang midlife crisis or menapuse.. hehe.
I was thinking about my future. like what wil happen if i quit my job. grabe i will lose so many things. my house, my car, my independence. Pero yung mga mahihirap na tao.. wala sila pera so they dont have much to lose to begin with. Yung mga contento sa buhay na conti ang material things pero happy sila sa life nila and with thier loved ones..kakaingit.
If u think about it.. yung mga mayayaman na tao ang madaming problema sa buhay. Sila ang nadedepress and take drugs for an escape. Meron ka na ba narinig na farmer or fisherman na nagpakamatay cause of depression?
Tingnan mo si michael jackson for example... super yaman nun pero tingnan mo ginawa nya sa mukha nya.. u think he is happy and content with life when he looks in the mirror even though he has everything he could possibly want.. what is missing? love? family? friends? Anyways im sure u get the point.
Iniisip ko din mga women in my life.. past and present..pero nde ko puede bangitin dito kasi masyado personal... pero things are going good.. i think.. kung walang magbabago.. slow and steady..
Iniisip ko din how i miss friends na nde ko na gaano nakikita or nakakausap cause of distance.. i hope and pray that you all are doing well!! These people have really good and genuine charactr: LIz, asim, mian, carl, liz na isa pa, corina, cathy!
Iniisip ko din mga pinsan ko na napakababait at ganda... how i regret na i didnt get to hang out with them as much as i would like to, nde ko sila nabigyan ng advice like a kuya should. Na miss ko mga debut, wedding, company, and important things that happend in thier life..
Iniisip ko din mga coworkers ko na ang tatamad.. ang papanget ng mga work ethics.. Iniisip ko how in corporate america.. you move up with who you know and not what u know...
I have htis general feeling of asar and worry..shiet ang pagnet.. punta na lang ako sa doc next week.. papatingin ko ulo ko.. hehe..
posted by Austin Pinoy at 5:01 AM
6 Comments:
Same here kuya, ako din hindi masyado makatulog. Number one, my wedding's fast approaching ... 2 months nalang ... invites are still in production, we still have no hotel for our wedding preps and still working on the money for the full payment sa lahat ng suppliers. ay kakaloka ...
plus ... I'm addicted to RAN online right now. hahaha! minsan till 1am ata ako gising. hirap talaga ng unemployed hihihi.
Menapause? hmmmm. maybe hehehe, hindi ka makatulog kasi po baka kailngaan mo na ng may makakasama sa buhay mo, tipong kahit pagod ka na galing sa work pag uwi sa bahay mawawala lahat ng pagod mo lalo na pag may baby kana at mapgamahal , maasikasong asawa... naks!
Tama ka karamihan sa mga may pera sila ang di masasayang tao parang may kulang pa sa kanila, walang satisfaction sobrang pagpapayaman lang ang alam pero boring ang buhay nila... minsan kasi ang pera hindi naman nakapagpapasaya sa tao yan, para sakin lang ha.,di kagaya naming mahirap lang hmmm kuntento na sa kung ano ang mayroon kami.
Wala pa ako narinig na karamihan sa mga mga mahihirap nagpapakamatay dahil sa kahirapan
madalas nababaliw or nawawala sa sarili sa sobrang pag iisip.... kaya ikaw pilitin mo makatulog heheheh baka masobrahan ka sa puyat at pag iisip. dito na lang po muna medyo busy.
Dear kuya,
Nostalgic ka lang siguro. Ganyan talaga pag tumatanda na. (Peace!) Seriously, naniniwala ka ba sa mga shrinks? Feeling ko kasi pag nagpatingin ka, babayaran mo lang sila for what you already know.
Kelangan mo siguro magbakasyon at magreconnect sa mga taong importante sayo - family and friends. Maybe you can ask them for advice sa career shift mo.
Yours truly,
cousin ganda
Hahaha, I was going to say menopause also pero binanggit mo na. Anyway, kung midlife crisis man 'yan para namang ang aga yata. Ang alam ko dumarating ang midlife crisis between the ages of 30-40.
Ang sa akin, nakuha mo na lahat ng gusto mo (stable job, house, car, etc.) except for one thing... and I think that is what's been troubling you. Parang you wanted so much to have this one thing pero hindi mo pa makuha o makita. You missed this one thing which you can no longer bring back.
You missed growing up with the people you liked/loved the most which in turn makes you anxious to meet that one person you'd like to grow old with. Ideny mo man pero yan ang basa ko sa blog mo. Just relax bro, darating sya sa buhay mo in the least expected time and place. For now, just enjoy your life, continue doing what you're doing, don't worry too much... you're a free soul and you only have yourself to think about..... to be continued, inaantok na ko....
pipay
well....almost the same thing thats happening...ahheehehhehehe
sometimes we'll feel the emptiness even we dont want to feel...we feel the loneliness even we are happy...lam moh un gulo noh....
i think everyone of us needs are someone...
someone that will be there to celebrate the goodness of life....
the real meaning of LIFE.....
the inner happiness..with him..with her..
hope that no more soul travelling in life alone........aheheheheheeheh
eh kaya ka naman pala hindi makatulog, eh ang dami mong iniisip. pero i understand. when you care too much about people at malayo ka sakanila hindi mo maiwasan mag-alala. pagnagwoworry ka pati sa kinabukasan mo madaling mag-cause ng anxiety. napag-daanan ko rin yon. so easy ka lang. mabait kang bata, maganda naman siguro ang karma mo.
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